One important thing that I need to do for myself is to learn how to trust again. I think that I might be a distrusting person by nature. I rarely “let people in” and have built up a high wall all the way around my life.
I don’t exactly know why I am intrinsically distrusting. As a whole, I think people are inherently good. I don’t automatically assume that everything others tell me is a lie. In fact, I take usually take people at their word and I’ve never been one to “check up on” people.
However, I feel like trust means that I know that there are people who I care for and in return they also care for me. I trust that they care for me. Even friends and family can make mistakes, but do those mistakes change the fact that I trust that they still care for me?
I take comfort and refuge in my family. I trust they they’ll be there to love and support me. They often know what I’m feeling and thinking before I do. I trust their love and devotion. I trust them.
I think trust’s starting point might be this- trusting myself. I know for a fact that I don’t trust my own feelings and instincts anymore. That being said, it’s probably pretty difficult to trust others if you can’t even trust the person in the mirror. The first step is always the hardest, right?
So, the moral of the story is- if someone values and loves you enough to place their trust in you, then it’s your responsibility to keep that precious gift safe.